Friends

I'm blessed with some great friends and they put up so much from me. Lately however, I find myself wondering if I should back off from telling them things. I feel like I'm such a downer person, that my life has turned into a warning sign for others on how not to do things. Do I inflict that on other people or do I stay with superficial stuff? When is it okay to talk about what's actually happening and when is it not?

I have a friend who is/has gone through something truly terrible in their life and I tried to be there for them by doing what they wanted even if it's not being there for them. Sometimes this friend wants to be left alone and I respect that. I miss them terribly during these times but I do understand why they need to pull back and recharge themselves. Now though, I find myself wondering if they would be better off without me being their friend. What can I bring to this friendship? I honestly wait for them to realize one day that I'm a crappy friend and they would be better off without me in their life.

Is it just depression talking or is it reality setting in? I don't know...